This is for the birds!

Wow -- I have to say, this single motherhood crap is for the birds, especially when you are stuck in the house for three days with a sick little one. I need some adult interaction!!

My heart goes out to those mothers out there that truly have no help. You women (and men - if be the case) are true wonders of the world!

Looking forward to Daddy coming in town soon and taking a turn.

Today is a BIG Day!

WHEW!!

I just found out that I am getting the deplux that I wanted. I could not be more estatic, a little scared, but simply estatic. GOD is BIG!!!! I put one foot in front of the other, let go and the rest was taken care of for me.

My own place in more than 10 years. It is crazy. I am not going to know what to do.

WOW!!! WOW!!! WOW!!!

I have no idea of what this new life is going to bring me, but I know it will be okay.

Attitude Adjustment

Okay -- It's time for a little attidude adjustment. I don't think I have been looking at the glass half empty, but yet I think I have been looking at the glass half full -- the glass just happens to be wobbling on the edge of the table of life!!!! I think I am expecting the glass to go tumbling to the floor shattering in a million pieces and soaking everything in sight. UH-HUM -- that would be called FEAR.

Time to readjust. I REFUSE to have fear run my life again. It is unacceptable.

I am starting at this point, right now -- TODAY! I will take that glass and put it firmly in the middle of the table. Heck, I am going to place a towel under it, because I plan soon to have that glass so full that it just might even start to overflow!

Take that! God's got my back and am not about to give up now.

This hurts

I am heart-broken.


I am torn.


A part of my life is missing and is forever changed.


I will survive - this I believe


but will the pain ever be gone?


Will the guilt really go away?





This hurts.

July 1, 2009

Life is painful!

Life is good!

Here's to the first day of my new life.

Father's Day

Yesterday was Father's Day and I had not given it much thought as my husband was out of town. We had plans to have lunch with my Father-In-Law and family, knew there was a quick call to my dad in the plans, but other than that, we had no other "holiday" plans. This turned out to be one of the most fulfilling Father's Day ever. Lunch with Pops was a lot of fun. It's great to see him smile and I saw that a lot yesterday. Although my call to my on Father was brief, it was so wonderful to hear his voice and know that he was surrounded by family in Memphis. Sure my brother and sister's kids kept him plenty busy. Then the surprise of all surprises. My husband called with an unexpected 4 hour layover in St. Louis. Amira and I were so excited. We quickly came up with an impromptu present for him. Our fantastic neighbor shot a few adorable pictures of us and we sped to Walgreens to print off a few copies. A frame with pics of his two favorite girls to put in his hotel room, some candy and a silly card that makes noise. What more could a guy ask for? We picked him up at the airport and just hung out. It was short, but it was so much fun. I simply loved it. Sitting in Dairy Queen watching my daughter lay her head on her Dad's shoulder was the best. What an unexpected delight.

What a fantastic day!!!!

It was a joke.

Did David Letterman seriously just have to stoop to apologize to Sarah Palin? Really - really - really - it was a joke. The man was telling a joke. A joke about an adult. Just cause it happens to be the adult child of a --hum--hum-- political figure --hum, if that's what you can call her -- doesn't mean everyone needs to get their panties in a wad!!