I have to say I have never been so happy to see a year end. This has to have been the most painful year I have ever lived through. The pain has lead to anger and resentment. It has been the most insightful as well. Unfortunately, the insight has lead to things I don't want see or accept.
BUT...
... accept I must. See I must.
With that said, I say, okay. Okay -- let's start fresh. I will begin the long road of living a new life. Of starting over. Of building up my damaged heart. Of working on forgiveness. Living for me. Living for happiness. Living for freedom.
Today, I have to say that I do not completely believe all this that I say. It is very hard to swallow the truth and have faith that I will be able to succeed at these things. BUT I do know there is such a thing as hope. I have known this thing called Hope before. Maybe I will again.
Maybe I expect a miracle at the strike of midnight. A magic wand of sort. The magic of a new year. 2010 to the rescue.
So, I know it doesn't work like that, but a girl can dream can't she?
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