Today is a BIG Day!

WHEW!!

I just found out that I am getting the deplux that I wanted. I could not be more estatic, a little scared, but simply estatic. GOD is BIG!!!! I put one foot in front of the other, let go and the rest was taken care of for me.

My own place in more than 10 years. It is crazy. I am not going to know what to do.

WOW!!! WOW!!! WOW!!!

I have no idea of what this new life is going to bring me, but I know it will be okay.

Attitude Adjustment

Okay -- It's time for a little attidude adjustment. I don't think I have been looking at the glass half empty, but yet I think I have been looking at the glass half full -- the glass just happens to be wobbling on the edge of the table of life!!!! I think I am expecting the glass to go tumbling to the floor shattering in a million pieces and soaking everything in sight. UH-HUM -- that would be called FEAR.

Time to readjust. I REFUSE to have fear run my life again. It is unacceptable.

I am starting at this point, right now -- TODAY! I will take that glass and put it firmly in the middle of the table. Heck, I am going to place a towel under it, because I plan soon to have that glass so full that it just might even start to overflow!

Take that! God's got my back and am not about to give up now.

This hurts

I am heart-broken.


I am torn.


A part of my life is missing and is forever changed.


I will survive - this I believe


but will the pain ever be gone?


Will the guilt really go away?





This hurts.

July 1, 2009

Life is painful!

Life is good!

Here's to the first day of my new life.

Father's Day

Yesterday was Father's Day and I had not given it much thought as my husband was out of town. We had plans to have lunch with my Father-In-Law and family, knew there was a quick call to my dad in the plans, but other than that, we had no other "holiday" plans. This turned out to be one of the most fulfilling Father's Day ever. Lunch with Pops was a lot of fun. It's great to see him smile and I saw that a lot yesterday. Although my call to my on Father was brief, it was so wonderful to hear his voice and know that he was surrounded by family in Memphis. Sure my brother and sister's kids kept him plenty busy. Then the surprise of all surprises. My husband called with an unexpected 4 hour layover in St. Louis. Amira and I were so excited. We quickly came up with an impromptu present for him. Our fantastic neighbor shot a few adorable pictures of us and we sped to Walgreens to print off a few copies. A frame with pics of his two favorite girls to put in his hotel room, some candy and a silly card that makes noise. What more could a guy ask for? We picked him up at the airport and just hung out. It was short, but it was so much fun. I simply loved it. Sitting in Dairy Queen watching my daughter lay her head on her Dad's shoulder was the best. What an unexpected delight.

What a fantastic day!!!!

It was a joke.

Did David Letterman seriously just have to stoop to apologize to Sarah Palin? Really - really - really - it was a joke. The man was telling a joke. A joke about an adult. Just cause it happens to be the adult child of a --hum--hum-- political figure --hum, if that's what you can call her -- doesn't mean everyone needs to get their panties in a wad!!

Are these people serious??? - It's a doll!

Have you heard the uproar over the Barbie that comes with stick on tattoos???

I am astounded by this! My 4 year old daughter and I have been so excited about getting this Barbie since the first time we saw it advertised. How cool - you can put tattoos not only on the Barbie, but it comes with ones for you as well. My husband and I both have tattoos and my daughter has a collection of fake tattoos. Hey, she wants to be like us. We are responsible members of society, lead normal lives and don't show off our bodies just to show off our tattoos. I believe for most people, tattoos are a little more personal than a way to show off their bodies. Besides, who knows if she will get older and want a tatoo or not, she is a kid and is PLAYING - it's what kids do!

Parents need to be responsible for their kids. Buy what fits your family and leave your ideals out of everyone else’s lives and the manufactures of products. Now, if it was a hatchet toting, blood splattered Barbie, I might have to think about that one. BUT A TATTOO, seriously, my 82 year old grandfather has tattoos!!!